X'mas round the conner

Excited awaiting x'mas come knocking doorway & still the other part of me sad about x'mas approching. I have many things haven't done & come true... shall I tell? hehe.. let it be my secret. Only me & our Almighty Lord knows. I wish .. I could be like others to feel the joy of this x'mas by sharing with my beloved family & the other part of me. Pray God show me way & lead me out from here to start all over again.